I am blogging for the first time, on my phone. I’m in Kaden’s hospital room watching him sleep. I wanted to be watching General Hospital, but the tv signal is lost. I could read but no words seem to make sense right now. I should sleep, as the broken up 2 hours of sleep I got last night is making me feel a bit nauseous.
Actually, that is probably in large part due to my nerves, too. And awful hospital food. Mostly nerves, though. For the unknown. I KNOW I am not supposed to be anxious (God feels us that) but watching my baby fighting against a very tough to treat pneumonia is gut wrentching, to say the least. Not knowing how long until SOMETHING will turn around to the positive for him. WAITING for the IV antibiotics TO START WORKING. I am holding on to the fact that none of our suffering is too much for God to handle. I know no problem is too challenging for Him… so really, this anxiety needs to be replaced by prayer.
Kaden came down with a fever 2 weeks ago today and after it didn’t go away by Tuesday his pediatrician wanted him admitted to the hospital. Turns out, there are lots of different types of pneumonia and we’ve now found out that Kaden has one of the ones that results in puss-pockets in the lung. Those puss-pockets are nearly impossible to penetrate with oral antibiotics therefore requiring IV ones.
As the doctors discussed all of this with me this morning I stared at them through hazy, tearfilled eyes. They explained that this treatment will take longer and he’ll be recovering for possibly months after he leaves the hospital. They said they’ll need to put in a pick-line to replace the IV, and that will also get the 2 antibiotics he’s on, further into his body. That said they may eventually (but probably not) need to drain the pockets of their infected liquid.
They paused in their talking… probably because I’d stopped looking at them and was crying into Kaden’s hair. I looked at the gal doimg most of the talking and said, “I am fine with it having to take a while… But you CAN save him right? He’s going to be fine, right?”
They assured me YES and God blessed me with that one word.
It is just going to take time.
And where do I go after this? We rarely get such profound opportunities to reevaluate our priorities and redirect our lives. Sometimes I’d wish for everything to just stop so I could restructure. Clearly everything in my life has come to a skidding halt and I have nothing but time to think about what means the most to me. I know I have to make some changes and while I am not making any decisions right now I am sure God will lead me because He most definitely knows what my priorities need to be. Unfortunately it has taken Kaden’s illness to make me finally stop and listen.
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Thinking of you both…Lacey and Matt.. we are praying little Kaden gets healthy ASAP… what a dear and precious family you have and it’s just so heart-wrenching that little Kaden is sick at the moment..Luke and I are thinking of you both and hope to see you all this summer if you have time (we will be in Sunriver..maybe on the way?!) Thinking of you though…especially gorgeous little Kaden at this time..xoxo lots of love. Erin and Lucas.
My heart is aching for you. Lots of prayers for sweet Kaden and your family.
Hi Lacey,
I messaged Melissa last week to ask how you were doing — and she suggested I come read here.
Oh my goodness, I am so sorry for what you are going through with your little guy!
We’ve been praying here and will continue to pray for your family.
Wishing you as much peace and comfort as possible in this tough situation!
~Rebecca
Lots of love and lots of hugs for you and Kaden. <3
Lacey, I am so glad he is doing better…continued prayers for continued healing, and prayers in your discernment…stay strong my friend!!! :heart
So sorry to hear about your little man.
I just got home from a women’s retreat about finding comfort under the blanket of God’s love and peace through thick and thin. I’ll be praying that you find peace and refuge under His blanket of love. He is with you and he is with Kaden. May God shine himself brightly in your heart and in your soul. big hugs from one mom to the other. 
I’m so relieved to read your update! I was worried when I hadn’t seen any recent info on CM. Kaden has been in my prayers. Pneumonia is scary- I’ve fought it regularly my whole life. It sounds like he is in good hands in that hospital…and most importantly, his Heavenly Father has control of this situation!
Oh Lacey, thank you for blogging this. We love you so much and have been praying for Kaden and your whole family. This is so hard as a momma. I have been really sick lately and praying God will give me His peace helps a lot. Try that. He is faithful and hears our cries. Love, Erica
Lace, my heart is hurting for you and Kaden right now. I know what a struggle you both are going through and I just wnat to hug you both. I am praying constantly for you and will continue to. Our God is Great and the Almighty Healer and Kaden is a fighter, so with that combination his health will prevail. Love you guys
Still praying for Kaden. Hope he surprises the doctors, and gets better quickly!
I was checking in hoping that you were home with your sweet boy. Hang in there. You are in my thoughts!
I have been anticipating your post everyday since last week, wondering if Kaden was ok. I was even going to get desperate enough to send Stacey a message and ask her to call you to see if you were ok.. thank the Lord you have updated us all and that Kaden is safe in the hospital getting better. You will overcome Lacey. Your faith will carry you through and we are all praying for his speedy recovery. I can’t wait to see your next post saying you are going home. Until then, please get some rest! I love you girly!
Praying for your family right now… so sorry you are going through this…
Oh Lacey, I am so sorry to be reading this!! You have been on my mind a lot since learning Kaden was sick. Sending prayers for healing and strength! ♥
Oh Lacey….I am so sorry
I will be praying for you and for a quick recovery for Kaden. I don’t “know” you other then from your posts at Clickin Moms but I couldn’t read this and not leave a comment ((hugs))
Oh Lacey…lots and lots and lots of hugs for you. While you do not know me, I have been a faithful reader on here for awhile and am always in awe of your beautiful pictures of your children…and more importantly of your love for them. You always capture it so well. And with your children being in similar age to mine (7,5,2) I think of you often when I am trying to document their lives…as some of it seems so similar. I can only imagine how your heart is hurting watching your baby go through this. Lots of prayers for him, as well as all of your family. I am thankful your life gives you the opportunity to be right there with him, loving him like only a mama knows how. {{{hugs}}}
Oh Lace-how I wish I could hug you right now. You guys are constantly in my thoughts and prayers. Love you!!
I can’t imagine how difficult this is for you. If it were me, I’d probably fall apart. I prayed for your little one last night after reading your previous post. I’ll be sure to keep you in my prayers!
Oh, Lacey! Praying for you all! even thugh we’re on opposite ends of the country, if there’s any way we can help, please let me know.
Oh Lacey. I have followed your blog since you started as I audited Karen Russell’s class the same time that you did. I love your photos and you write so beautifully. I just had a feeling he was in the hospital when I didn’t see you post all week. I have been in prayer for you and your family. I know it may seem strange as we have never met and I haven’t commented on here before but I have felt the Lord’s leading. I pray for God’s complete healing for Kaden. And that in the midst of this very scary time that you are able to see Jesus. I hope you are able to get some rest. God Bless your heart. It is so kind.